Truly Madly
... for where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Ladybug's is 2

So she's not officially 2 years old until Friday at 8am.... but I just can't wait to celebrate my little girl.

I couldn't have imagined her in my wildest dreams. God made her perfectly, and one of a kind!

Those first 6 weeks she slept in the my arms because it was where she wanted to be. The other night she woke up and called for me (that never happens) and I treasured those moments cuddling with my baby... only she's not a baby anymore.

It's official.
She's a BIG GIRL.
She says so.

How did that happen anyways.
I am so thankful for this little girl who is daughter to The King!

(and so glad I get to be her mama... couldn't imagine life without her)

She is

She loves laying on her brother's beds and playing with their toys.
And standing in front of the TV when they watch their favorite shows. Attention everyone, I am right here!!! She loves her brothers so much and they know it.

She looks into her daddy's eyes and says so sweetly "Daddy". oh. no,.... she's so got him.

She is the cutest Ladybug I've ever seen.

Voice Of Truth

This song has been in my head so much lately.
The voice of truth says do no be afraid.
The voice of truth says this is for my glory.
I will choose to listen and believe.

It really is a choice isn't it. Trusting in the Lord and leaning not on your own understanding...

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Ladybug Cupcakes

Ladybug's birthday is coming up soon, so I made Ladybug Cupcakes!
It's only appropriate, right?

If I can do these ANYONE can. :)

So, I found a few different ideas and combined them and here is what I got.
1 box cake mix (I used strawberry)
mix: vanilla frosting + red decorating paste + a little red food coloring

Bake the cupcakes, frost them, then cover them with red sparkly sprinkles.
Add a stripe of black decorator frosting down the middle of the back.
Poke 5 chocolate chips in upside down on each side.

Squish an Oreo on the front.
Dip mini-marshmallows (cut in half) in the black frosting and squish them in.
Dip blue mini-M&Ms in the white frosting and stick them on the marshmallows.
Dip red mini-M&Ms in the black frosting for the ladybug's mouth.

And there you've got a bunch of ladybugs!

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Daughter of a King

~Excerpt from "Choosing to See" by Mary Beth Chapman

In that moment, time stopped. It was like God was speaking to me directly, "Mary Beth, you thickheaded woman, do you not understand now that this is the very way I see you? You are this orphan! I adopted you and you are Mine! I bought you for a price! Do you see how you love this baby? That's just a faint reflection of how much I love you! You didn't have a name, and I gave you a name. You did nothing to deserve my love, and I love you anyway. You had no hope, no future, and now you are the daughter of the King!"

I saw it. The second she was placed in my arms, I would have fought to the death to protect her. I loved her with everything inside of me.

"Do you get it now?" God was saying to me.

Under the blanket, this baby wrapped in rags. She was poor. She didn't smell good. She was hungry. There was nothing about her that had "earned" my love. But I loved her powerfully, deeply, absolutely.
Period. I got it.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

This just became my theme song

In this moment, my heart is exposed. A million thoughts running through my head, I feel like I need strength-- more strength that I possess on my own. Nervous...
Somebody who's initials are D.K. told me recently, "there are no what-ifs with God".

Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine... Ephesians 3:20

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Breaking News & the Back-Story

I haven't blogged in a while, and up to this point I haven't felt ready to share this burden that has been on Daniel's and my hearts for quite some time. It began in January 2002 (a year before we married) when we still knew very little about China or the orphan situation there. Daniel and I were discussing our future family and I said that I wanted to adopt an orphan from China. I had never thought about it very deeply before that second, and it just came out. How odd to have said something I didn't even realize! That day Daniel and I had this imprint made in our hearts. It was the beginning...

To make a long story short... we got married, had 3 wonderful blessings, and then out of the blue right before Ladybug's first birthday it hit me. This stirring, and burden in my heart. I told Daniel and guess what... he felt it too. I went to Berean for "Storytime" a few weeks after that and Ladybug won a book called 'Shaoey and Dot' by Marybeth Chapman about a ladybug who finds an abandoned orphan in China and accompanies her home to her forever family in America. That about knocked me over! I was sobbing in the car driving home... Caleb in the back seat said, "What's the matter mom?" and I replied, "This is just a really good book!!!" So when we got home he took the book and sat on the couch and read it, fake-sobbing through the whole thing and saying, "Mom your right, this IS a really good book!"

But it's not that simple, and that's why it's taken me a year to even say a word about it. If you know anything about international adoption you probably know that the process is very expensive. There is no way we could come up with that kind of money. So we started saving, and carefully budgeting everything... and one year later only have a small percentage saved up- just enough to cover the application and homestudy. Recently we were talking about "walking by faith, not by sight" (2 Corinthians 5:7) and Daniel said that if we keep trying to do this on our own (1) how will God ever get the glory for making it happen? (2) It will never happen.

We also had to work through all the thoughts and feelings involved with the changes an adoption will make in our family. The child will have some type of minor special needs and will need a lot of love and attention. Ladybug will no longer be the baby. I will have much more on my plate to balance and juggle. We prayed about these things and more, and Satan whispered in my ear that I was inadequate, undeserving, and it just couldn't happen. It came in waves of 'what if's' and I even tried to stop thinking about it for a while but couldn't. Turning our backs on this child is impossible.

So we're stepping out in faith knowing that God is more than capable of placing one of His precious orphans into our family. Where God guides, He provides. I spent the last year fighting off fear over this issue and thinking it just couldn't happen but I realize now that I cannot allow the worries to be a stumbling block. I refuse to live in fear. I don't want to walk by sight anymore. Give me new perspective Lord, a vision only you can give!

The spirit you received does not make you slaves, so that you live in fear again; rather, the Spirit you received brought about your adoption to sonship. And by him we cry, "Abba, Father." Romans 8:15

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to His purpose. Romans 8:28

Right now we are in the process of selecting an agency-- we have it narrowed down to two and hope to make this decision and send in this application very soon. I don't know why this is so hard!!! God can use whichever agency and I just need to trust in Him.

Please come along side us, and pray for us. We really need your love and encouragement!