So Superman and I have pretty much decided to stop at three, and are planning for tubal ligation with Ladybug's C-section. We've been talking about this a lot and it makes perfect sense. It's logical and practical for our personal situation and that is something we completely agree on.
But it's also the end of my reproductive life, and I'm very sad about that. This will be my last pregnancy and I LOVE being pregnant! This will be my last baby to hold and adore. I thought that I would get to a point where I was DONE... done with pregnancy, dirty diapers, having a person attached to my nipple everywhere I go, sleep deprivation, you name it... but I would do it again and again and I don't know that I would ever be sick of it!
My prayer is for peace in my heart that I can let go of this stage of life and embrace whatever follows, or if this choice is wrong then I pray that God will make that crystal clear to us. I guess having great pregnancies and happy babies had to have a catch somewhere, and here it is. I just want to live in babyland forever!!!
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well it is certainly a blessing to have such great pregnancies! but those of us who had it hard (well at least me) might agree that its still difficult to think of there being an "end". i know the LORD will direct you- just continue to pray about it. and if you get the chance- have a converstion with a mom or two who have made that decision... i know of at least one person you could talk to. :)
If you agree in prayer you need to grow a peace;). When you leave babyland there is so much more! I think you are inspiring a post;).
You know your third paragraph? Yeah, that's me. That's how I know I'm done. Done, done, done. I have my 'sterilization' paperwork on my refrigerator so I can walk by and be reminded that I'm supposed to be ENJOYING pregnancy. But that's what it took for ME. I know many who never get to that stage and still have peace about not having more.
I think I'll always long to hold a baby, but I think I'll always be glad I get to give it back. I'm pretty sure this little man is going to held by mama a lot 'cause I know it's my last one.
We can pray for peace together! :)
I am getting my tubes tied as soon as I am done nursing Mark. It was funny cause shortly after Michael was born I realized I wasn't done with 2 like I had thought I would be. (I should say we!) But during my last pregnancy, I knew it would be my last, during my last birth, I knew it was my last. Getting rid of the baby items Mark is done with feels good! I know my family is complete & I am so blessed for these 3 little boys I have given birth to. I am just a little peeved that my husband is a big FAT chicken & won't get snipped. Since I am scared I will get pregnant with an oopsie, I am taking matters into my own hands!
Julie
We'll keep you and your family in our prayers too. Praise God for the easy babies and easy pregnancies! I think I'd be a wreck if it were any other way.
It's good to know other moms who can relate to me on this. I wish it were an easier decision to make and I wish it was something I could be excited about instead of sad!
You will always hold and adore all of your kids no matter how big they get! That is what I remind myself every day. They will always need you.
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